all my poems(so far)
Mood:  lyrical
Topic: poetry
HeLp
Blowing away like the leaves
Only the wind can catch my dreams
Losing the time given to me
When will I ever be free?
When will they understand?
Who will strech out their hand?

TeArS
Can you not see me?
My eyes are filled with tears
Can you not hear me?
Ive been crying all these years
I guess I've hidden it all inside
Pushed it as deep as it can go
I guess I'm a pretty good actor
And never let it show
I'm afraid they see me weak
For just a single moment of the day
I'm afraid they see the little Boy
Not the barstard that's tough in every single way
Only a few have ever seen at my worst
Very few people have ever seen me cry
I apologize to those
They are not your problems, but mine
But as strong as I look
I have so many fears
And as tough as I seem
I've shed too many tears.

A mOoD pOeM
I am hurting
Not knife in my chest hurting
Not sick hurting
Not the bodily hurt that sometimes comes like wild sobs
But just sorrow hurting
Hurting that I have no control
Hurting that I want to let go, but I can't
Hurting that I want to tell them...impossible

DiFfErEnT
I feel shuned and disowned
I am marked and pegged
I open up to people
But they close their ears

Perhaps if I were in a metroplis
Then I would find others like me
But, I'm stranded in a village
Where only one is acceptable

I long to stand and scream
Yell at the height of my voice
"Why do you judge when you do not know?"
But people just pass on; paying no mind

Now they do not hear
They cannot see the pain
For in the times we live
You are who people say

I wAnT tO cRy
I want to cry But I can't
Nothing in my world is clear
I'm so tired of pretending
Images grow wavey through my tears

I beat my fists into the walls
Slowly I give up the fight
I want to scream through the sobs
I need your grace tonight

Crying to the God I want to know
I'm giving You my load
I pass to You my scars
Your blood has overflowed

 

lOsT
Can You see me down here?
Can you feel my pain?
Can you see my tears
As i cry out your name                                  

Lord, I feel so lost
I want to serve you
but I'm afraid of the cost
Will I stay true?

Oh, God I hurt!
Do you know how I feel?
I'm so uncertain
Is your love for real?

I am in endless agony
Like glass wedged in my heart
God, help me
I'm falling apart

SiN
Darkness is falling all around
There is no place to hide
Blackness enfolds me
Closing in around me

I kick and scream
But I know it's no use
I did this myself
Now I can't escape

Crying, screaming, lost hopeless
Why didn't I read the warning signs?
I knew what I was doing
At least I thought I did

Not knowing what to do
Not knowing where to go
Nothing I can hold on to
How can I stop this?

WhEn YoUr NoT tHeRe
When you're not there
My life has no meaning,
Your's does but it has no feeling.
You think I am there but you can't touch me,
Or hold me.
Everything is dark and in a shadow.
You think I am OK
But really don't know I cry at night
Not in front of you though.
Nothing can change between
Me and you
It's all dark and scary, but not when i'm with you.
You think I am happy and cheerful
But everything you see is untruthful.
I can't explain what I feel when I am with you,
I feel safe, happy, everything I never felt before.
My friends say you're ugly,
My friends say you're cute.
Oh what the hell it's me and you.

                                                  mY sWeEt DaRk LoVe
 My sweet dark love
How I loathe you
But yet how I yearn to hold you
The pain you've givin me
Is more than your abuse was
My soul more scarred than my body
I have yet to even know if you loved me
But I figure I shall never know
Which adds one more scar to my spirit
One you will never know you gave